Yang best di 2014

Yang pasti 2014 has passed, too many sad news for Malaysia
as for me, i tried to cherished every bit of it. Some of my personal achievements 

• best thing ever, i  conceived Sofia on Nov 2013 and birthed her on 18th July 2014 despite the ups and downs on emotional before that

• Travelling- we managed to Kundasang and KK, Sabah. Genting Highlands, Thistle PD. We don't travel much coz we are waiting for Sofia to arrive.

• HM graduated his JK class and now entering to K1 (5yo), still at Krista Tmn Nirwana

• career wise, i have left MAH & MAHTEC  and now being the Executive Assistant, to the President/Board. Still in hospitality industry. Syukur gaji pun naik, rezeki baby baru

• Berjaya going through one phase where i felt i was been left out. Alhamdulillah Allah bagi kekuatan

• Celebrated Mak's birthday at the Corus Hotel with siblings

• Tho i'm mixing formula milk and my  breast milk for Sofia, but its 70% more on my breast milk. This time i have more knowledge in hand and i tried to bf Sofia as long and as much as i could. This also meant that i bought my first medela swing and the sterile set. I hope i can bf her up to 1 year (at least) and more to come later

• I tried to have a gentle birth while delivering Sofia but i can't, instead went for C-sect with Dr. Roslan. Definitely natural and normal birth is way better. Pray that i can VBAC for my third (will there be? insyaAllah)

• bought the most expensive handbag for myself (reward la for diri sendiri) and its my first Prada

• went through some uneasy things in life related to friends and families, yang pasti every thing happened for a reason. I am being more careful and choosy with my words and with whom should i connected with. It left a small wound in me and i choose to be distanced with them. past is past la

• 2014, again saya tak dapat beraya. In fact, i beraya di hospital Selayang with Sofia admitted due to jaundice. And i berpantang sendiri, quite a challenged tho but with the help of husband especially and mak (came to visit on the weekends), friends we went through it

• bought my own fridge after the old one went KO few weeks before raya came (phiew)

2015, please give me more positive vibes and dipermudahkan segala urusan!!

#PrayForPantaiTimur

Allahuakbar. Allahuakbar. Allahuakbar

Banjir menyerang lagi. This time the whole stretch of pantai timur, mostly Kelantan were hit badly.Terengganu, Pahang are also affected. Johor, Perak, Perlis ada juga yang terkena tempiasnya

Kalini air yang membanjiri sangatla teruk, and its muddy flood. Hujan yang nonstop lagi 

memburukkan keadaan

At social media, there were a lot of pictures and messages been shared. From the victims, the relatives, rescue teams etc

but the most heart wrenching one, that involved kids. Sangat sedih tengok and dengar

They are hungry and helpless. Some area tuh were hit badly and air sangat dalam sampai rescue team nak masuk to help and distribute donation pun tak boleh. End up they were stranded there with no food, no dry clothing, no drinking water and other basic necessity

Sungguh Ya Allah, if aku di beri kesempatan untuk turut serta helping any of the rescue team to be either at kelantan/pahang/terengganu, i will be there. I WILL BE THERE

But i have my own family here that needs me especially my 5mo baby Sofia who are still breastfeeding. I'm not complaining nor anything, i was saying if i were given a chance at the right times, i am gonna volunteer myself. I wanna help them. maybe i can't donate much on cash/food/items but at least i can help to ease their burden and help them whatever necessary.

So sad seeing them with no place to stay, no proper food, some had lost their family members and even all their stuffs to this musibah. It is yet another ujian drpd Allah swt, we just  have to be redha and accept and move on from there. Bahu yang memikul mmg lagi berat dari mata yg memandang, truly understand that

Meantime, others shouldn't be judging others. I mean, if one didn't update or post anything on his/her FB/ any social media about this, it doesn't mean that they didn't care or aware. We are not in the position of judging others. Let just doa and pray that all the flood victims are safe and in good hands

I am also deeply sad that some kids have lost their parents to this. 

No one expected that. NO ONE. i bet everyone are trying their best to save their loved ones, even to the animals. Animals too deserved to be saved. Please have some mercy

 Every year from mid Oct- Jan we known its monsoon season here where mostly nearby beaches area have to be alert and take some precautions on the weather. Again, it is beyond our control. Allah yang mengetahui segalanya

From my 2cents (yelah kita belajar dr pengalamankan) since its monsoon every year, each houses/family needs to have the survival kit. Ensure dalam bag yang waterproof and floated one too, kena ada basic ameneties ie : towel, blanket (nipis pun OK), candle, mancis, small mineral botol, dry food (or can be top up on the day itself), one/two dry clothes etc. Stuffs can be added at later based on needs. At least bila terjadinya musibah, we can just grab this bag. 

Plus government pun play a big role. Dah tau monsoon ni memang every year ada (just based on teruk ke takla banjir tu), kena ada sistem mengatasi or a evacuate plan yang proper.

We can't  be ongoing to deal only when the issue arise. We need to learn from our past and make it better in future. Sistem pengumpulan bekalan and rescue team pun kena ada plan.

Well, i'm not gonna be a keyboard warriors or any ustazah FB yang nak tulis macam2

i just hope and doa that all of the flood victims tabah and kita as a one malaysian unite and help them whichever yang boleh!

#PrayForPantaiTimur

Update about sofia at 5mo

helloooooooooo
before we ends the 2014, nak update sikit about Sofia
beside than she has grown up chubbyly (alhamdulillah) and beautifullyyyy
at 5mo this week, she has successfully on tummy. Yes, meniarap

before this she had practiced that tapi rasa coz of her heavy bum, she have that difficulty to turn
selalu je tak lepas, sian kekadang tengok. but now, herm..pantang laid her down zzuuppp dah turned
tapi tang tangan tak lepas, still need help hehe

amazingly (why most of my words here got so many 'ly'??)
she is the biggest so far, i mean sihat walafiat la. looking at her both legs made me scared jugak, i mean its like the thigh of KFC, geerraam rasa nak gigit
even anyone who'd met her would say the same thing. Anyhow, i'm just blessed that she is healthy. Tho she consumed 40% FM and the rest on BM, she still sihat

attending kakak HM performance

after all her mengamuk she dozeddd

oh by the way recently she had this habit of throwing her tantrums/mengamuk before she sleep
and like her sister, Sofia ni suka tahan mata. Mata dah ngantuk still terkebil2 tengok kartun/tv

her first swim with us was last Sunday at KK Club. Poor her, almost couldn't fit the pelampung (gosh, at this time i couldn't think of that word in english)..-____-

Its time for Year End Grad at krista

sekejap je setahun berlalu and HM already completed her JK class
haihs, flashback the beginning of her school part, almost 3 months with crying.
Parents kena keras hati if not tak jadi pi sekolah la
Once she settled down, all went smoothly. But of course there's an episode of ponteng skool

Some of the milestone she had now are :

• more talkative - of her surroundings, story teller, sing a song
• more confident on stage while performed
• has a good knowledge on certain : animals, spaceship, senses, basic of Agama/doa, 
• a very good describer on items/such : 
• started to learn her malay vocab by singing, reading book at school
• her weakness in school was writing. She has this lazy habit to write. All nak kena guide. not a good started on this 
• in class, teacher said that she was very helpful towards her friends if they need help

Overall, she is good in class. I noticed that she has improved. Well, what do you expect from a 4yo kid? Just be proud of whatever her achievements, its a bonus to us. She is also has become a good kakak to her Sofia tho sometimes she can be clingy.

So we went to her final concert at MPAJ hall. she is indeed a good performer (cough, like mommy. good in dancing heh)

singing tadpoles song

we came to support kakak HM

dancing a Happy song - Pharrel William

Insya-Allah, 2015 she'll be at Krista again at K1 class. 

Birth Story of Sofia #3 and that's it!

sigh, 3d2n seems longer when you're in hospital

after Dr. Roslan came and checked my stitches, which looks fine and ok, i can go home

FINALLY

been at the hospital with no shower for 3days beside than bit freshen up and brushing your teeth can be so annoying 

i need a full bath!!

Oh before that, on my 2nd day here, few visitors came

my PIL and my BIL came with his lil family over the weekend

it's good to see them so i can stretched 

other than that it's only me, husband and sofia

Sofia is like her sister HM, is easy to handle. I am proud and thankful to be blessed with both girls

no hassle. Sleep like a queen, cried for a milk and diaper change

And Sofia is a good sucker too. She knows how to latch with bit of my guidance

And this time, i am ready to nurse her right from we're out from the OT room

as others said the first colostrum out from your breast is the most expensive and important to your baby and here we go baby

we've made a good team this time!

And so after settling our bills etc, we are heading home

my journey this time is not an easy one but i'm trying my best. My aim is to breastfeed sofia as long as i could. When there's a demand, there's a supply. Gambatteh!

Note :
after a week, Sofia has a jaundice and bermula lah episode of us back and forth to the Klinik kesihatan and to hospital (admitted!) as she has a high level of jaundice. (blame us the parents for not been able to read the sign).  She has the longest time of recovery which almost a month after a urine test and blood test done (and results showed nothing to worried), i just kept on breastfeed her 24/7 and accept the facts from doctor that some baby will take some time to get their bladder matured and kicked off that yellow thingy

Alhamdulillah she has recovered and grow beautifully and chubbier everyday! 

When HFMD strikes

HFMD- hand foot mouth disease

but sometimes i called it as HMFD, whatever that cross my mind la

i bet every parents wants their kids to be healthy always. Well, it can't. Knowing kids ni suka masukkan tangan dalam mulut lah, they also like to explore things 
And everytime i pray and doa that both my princesses are doing fine, healthy as ever

But i guess Allah nak uji kot
HM got HFMD. What?Why?How? don't asked me
the last thing i knew she's complaining that her mouth sakit. The first time i heard so i thought that she tergigit her lips/lidah when eating, so i told her " ok we'll put a 
"honey lipstick" later  "(which is my Buds honey lipbalm, she so loving it!)
then at 5-nish  in the morning, while me feeding Sofia, HM came to my room and said she want nenen
Thirsty i thought. OK Fine, i did one glass for her. Which later she complained again that her mouth sakit. I get curiousla of course

I checked her mouth. Lower lips, i can see one tiny ulcer. Then later on her tongue i can see big one. EH?
i checked her hands, there were red spots
i checked her both legs, red spots too
my instinct says, it's HFMD..i stunned.
then I chat with my SCFM sisterhood moms (yes, at 530am , these mothers are always awake at wee hours, as i have one staying at Liverpool, while some are feeding their babies too, and some woke up for their subuh prayers)
i posted these pictures below, and yes they confirmed too that it's HFMD

I is sad for HM. Poor my baby is sick with this contagious disease!!

So i start Google about it and take note on what should i do plus some tips from najua (she's been through this before with both AA)

Telling husband about this when he's half awake is so not cool.
he kept on saying  " OK..OK and OOOKKK" and back to sleep
rasa nak pang? YES

so i text-ed my boss saying that i'm on EL for maybe two days. Well, i have to look after my own daughter that needs my attention. i can't trust anyone else to do this , plus husband.
Yes, i am that fussy. Coz i tend to wanna know every single thing what others do/treat my sick daughter. Mom always know what she gotta do. So i'm gonna be the babysitter/the doctor and nurse for few days

Keep calm and ........................

I started to fall in love with Pinterest. Like really now in loveeeee
maybe i don't understand what Pinterest is before..pfftt
but to kill boredom, yes i play with  Pinterest as it have soooo maannnyy good stuffs
be it on deco, quotes, DIY, pictures etc

i kinda messed up today sigh
well, i bet there's a silver lining behind it. as i always believed, everything happened for a reason
It's for you to ponder and reflect and react
as we get older and wiser, we learnt from our mistake. Words can be as sharp as knife
it's easy to be forgiven but not forgotten

i just hope i am stronger than before. Reflect and react upon it
And i decided something. Sometimes, its best for you to just make distance with someone/everyone and just wait and see. And most important, just be YOU
no need to change to please others

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing


Wait a second,
Why should you care, what they think of you
When you're all alone, by yourself
Do you like you? Do you like you?



No, you don't have to change a single thing
try- colbie callait

Sofia dah 3 bulan

hamboi, cepatnye masa passing by
and my little pau already turned 3mo..and yet to get her injection (kes ayah yang bz benau,, )

I am so bless and thankful for having sofia tho through c-sect
Sofia ni bijak. When she have one week to turn 3, she already trying to lifted her head
padehal awak tu kecik lagi, dah sibuk nak angkat kepala, nak tengok tv and nak kepochi
Tho i'm a bit concerned but i believed that she has her own capabilities
at 2mo plus pun she started to cooing/talking. part of her development as per babycenter
dok gelak sakan and bercakap as if paham what we talk to her

Menyembur air liur tu jangan cakapla . Dengan 2 penumpuk hand masuk mulut, kelecup kelocop bunyi everytime she sucks her hand. But whenever there's a times that i need to cut her fingernails, i treat her like her sister HM, she sit on my lap, bagi tengok tv as distraction and i will hold her fingers and do the nail clipping. sangat bijak bagi kerjasama :)

I think she's passed 7kg now. Alhamdulillah such a chubby pau
She gets everyone attention especially my friends/relative who gets her update via my FB
memang pipi pau sungguh. Growing beautifully and healthier from my 90% ebm. 
Moga Allah melimpahkan lagi rezeki for her to continue breastfeeding and i will happily feeding her

2mo plus

3months

2mo plus when i was a temp SAHM, w her gedik sister HM

Birth Story of Sofia #2

WHAT?

She's 3.2 kg? oh my, besar jugak (while heard she's crying. i shed tears..for sure!)

fresh from my womb :)

on her 2nd day

That's my response to Dr Roslan when he mentioned sofia  birth weight.

Anyhoo, Alhamdulillah that she is perfect and in a good condition. (i am still trauma over HM's birthed experienced 4 yrs back)

i requested to see my newborn baby, ahh muka cute and chubby sket

And now masa untuk digodek2 lagi and dibersihkan

i still shivering. That blower didn't do good job on me. or maybe i was too skinny heh

whole operation took almost 30mins and later i was brought to the discovery room

at this room, i was covered with warm blanket (acting like the blower tadi) for at least one hour 

Diorang letak kat sini jugak untuk pantau whether i have any reverse effects after the ope

to some ppl, diorang will muntah, pening, loya, bleeding etc

Alhamdulillah i am OK..well response to every questioned. i tried to sleep but i am still hungy, dahla tengah sejuk lapar lagi huhuhu sgt tak membantu

nurses were so helpful. They helped me to change my napkins. meantime, my ubat bius slowly to disappeared and i should be able to move my leg bit. It shows a good sign of recovery

Instead of should be one hour kat dalam ni, turned into satu setgh jam pulak. I'm waiting for nurses from my maternity ward to picked me for the transfer. haish, semua bz plak, I can't wait to see my newborn baby and just rest in my room

And finally they picked me and back to my twin bedded room

First movement was terasa sangat awkward. Coz the heaviness of my belly still there, have to slowly moved and tampung my belly. Plus kene naik atas katil yang tak boleh di low kan (sgt tak praktikla to c-sect/normal mothers)

Husband is there waiting for me with my newborn baby. She was pretty. Praised to Allah for eased and made my delivery smooth. Syukur that both mom and baby are fine. That's all matters

So, bermulala episod tido di hospital for 3d2n. Lucky husband can teman in the hospital but poor him have to sleep on the couch. Well both mom and ayah have to sacrifices la kan

At night he'll help me to change diapers and handle sofia as i can't move much (i'm trying but with this urine bag attached on my V, it made my movement tak selesa)

Service and food from hospital are OK. Nurses and doctors are helpful and attentive. And since Hospital Selayang is bf friendly hospital, They taught me how to latch and nursed sofia. Terlupa la pulak the correct way and technique haha

And the sleepless nights begin..........................zzzzzzzzz

Birth story of Sofia #1

it is almost 10days to go before raya which falls on 28-29 July 2014
and i am still have no sign of beranak beside that too much discharge

10th July 2014
check up with my Dr. Roslan..still no sign. No VE done. All ok
air ketuban cukup, baby dah engaged (actually since 30th week), balik rumah and doc said tunggu if air ketuban pecah/bleeding/contractions
so continue la minum RTL (raspberry tea leave), makan VCO, did perineum massage


17th July 2014
since mlm semalam dah rasa sakit kat ari2. This morning the pain still there, tapi lagi menyucuk, discharge byk as usual. So told amir lets go hospital, sakit macam lain sket (but not contractions tho perut dah selalu sgt mengeras)

About 3pm dah sampai Selayang, went direct to PAC at 5th flr, while waited to be assessed.
Then came a junior doc do the cheking coz Dr Roslan as usual busy with others.
Contractions were mild je, tak sakit pun. So after jwb soklan itu ini, then a senior doc came with the junior tadi. She did a VE and said i have opened 5cm. WOW!
masa dgr tu rasa mcm unbelievable, lagi half way nak go 10cm..semoga dipermudahkan la
So doctor said have to admit coz normally 2nd baby cepat sket

 Bag memang dah packed dlm keta so tell amir its the day.

After he arranged registration bla bla, i opted for twin bedding at FPP since single full
Banyak jugak mom's yang nak deliver dekat nak raya ni

Then dah dingdong everything about almost 9pm masuk LR. Sempat lagi teman amir buka puasa kat canteen bawah and chit chatting (sambil pakai kain batik time ni)


17th July, 9pm
stay la dalam LR. so far i can say whatever i planned for in my birth plan was adhered.
i was on intermittent ctg (means not 24/7 strap on ctg)..so kekdg tu every one hour or 30mins i was strap on to check baby's heartbeat and my contractions
Sad to say my contractions rate tak cantik lagi..very mild je
While waiting, banyakla i heard other mom's from other LR room screaming, nangis, ranting etc. Their experiences on delivering their baby.

Ada satu mom tu, very kesian i heard. She was crying like helplessly for almost 3 jam. menangis and berdoa yang Allah permudahkan her birthing, sambil repeating cakap "sakitnya Ya Allah" then continued mengucap and berzikir. Sedih and kesian dengar..then sampai i tertido kejap..and i heard her no more. Bila tanye nurse, she said that mom kene c-sect coz dah dilated 9cm for 3hours with no progress so doc opt c-sect.
Ada pulak yang mom jenis senang je melahirkan..but the best moment was bila dah dengar the mom screaming and pushing like hell, then here it comes the newborn baby crying
Ahhh, so priceless moment

Ok back to my story, another VE done after 4-5 hours, i am into 6cm dilation. Contractions? Nadaaaa...mild je. sangat boring kat dalam LR..dah boleh tido sampai ke esok pagi pun. Dalam LR tak boleh makan but i sempat eat kurma and drink water to keep me energized


18th July, 8am
After more than 8hrs passed, i was 7cm dilated.  Very slow progress
So they asked me to wait for Dr Roslan for the next stage.

And about close to 10am, Dr Roslan came and briefed me the scenario.
Basically my water bag still intact and my contractions were poor.
Options are break the water bag and wait for the real surges and hope for opening (they give me 4hrs for full dilation) OR be induced OR opt for c-sect

After discussed with hubs and my self i opt for c-sect
Tho all this while i wanted a gentle birth, tapi i have my own reason opting c-sect
So  please respect my decision.
I have well informed and decide this, so itu rezeki saya dalam melahirkan anak
Janganla be so judgemental. Either ways pun memang ada sakit, there's no such thing as normal delivery lagi sakit dari c-sect

Since i kena puasa before the c-sect (at least 4hrs prior), so my operation is after Friday prayers.
But by 4pm je i was been prepared for the ope coz before that bilik full
Urine bag dimasukkan kat miss V, a bit pedih the process tuh.
and nurse briefed me about the process. Before masuk ope room pun again diorg explained to me again the process

Dalam operation room tu sangatla sejuk.  Shivering like mad!
Again, before they started toreh2 my perut, the anesthesia doctor explained to me that:
-i will be on half bius, from perut to kaki
-i akan sedar so know what they did and say. to ensure that the bius really work, kaki kita akan terasa sgt berat and cannot move at all. Even when they poke us pun takkan terasa

Bismillahhirrahmannirrahim!
bermula episod c-sect. After doc godek2 and goyang perutku here and there, finally i can hear the baby is crying. Alhamdulillah. I also heard Dr Roslan bagi salam to her
Then i asked him what is her weight, he said 3.2kg. 



Continue

The End of my 7years with MAH & MAHTEC

I started my October with last day of working at the Malaysian Association of Hotels &

Malaysian Association of Hotels Training and Education Centre (MAHTEC Sdn. Bhd)

7 YEARS oi!! the longest company i've worked with

Begin with only 2 staffs at MAHTEC and now it has become well known in the hotel industry

So many ups and downs working here. So many fond memories i've had, and all the bitter-sweet too. Arguments, crisis management, tears, laughed and almost everything i have learned here. I am proud of myself for all this experiences

I was given so many chances and experiences to travel to almost every states in Malaysia and ASEAN countries and visited so many fantastic hotels. I've met so many fabulous hoteliers who have passion in their career and in hospitality industry. That is part of the valuable moments 

But i have to decide something good for my life and career for becoming a better person

Sooner or later i have to bid farewell to my fellow colleagues who has been a good officemates. For their support, team work, gossiping sesh, punching bags moment etc

It'll always be in my thoughts!

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. ~Flavia Weedn,

The breastfeeding journey

Alhamdulillah this time with Sofia i was given a chance to breastfeed (BF) her again
and syukur too this time i have gained quite more knowledge on BF

and so i took some supplements to boost my milk
ekceli, it depends pada individual jugak, some will have more and some will not
rezeki masing2 Allah bagi. Overall, do not judge moms yang have less EBM (express breast milk) supply. NEVER JUDGE!

consist fenugreek from Fabulous mom

Fenugreek above is one of the supplement i took. Bought at Fabulous Mom UKelang and taste good.
Beside that, i boil dried longan +red dates too and drink it, hot or cold
It didn't give my EBM till mencurah2 oversupply but it helps to boost la
others are like : durian, milo, ovaltine, chocolate, nasi, overnite oats etc
if you google pun there's a lot of supplements, be it in natural ways (food/drink) or in tablets

As long as we have the effort rather than just give up without trying, that's a BIG L!

To complete this journey, i bought Medela swing at Fabulosmom too
SO lucky there were having sale 50% for almost 2months
The package was quite a good steal for me
RM699 - medela swing set with so many free gifts : 3 ice packs that last for 8hrs, 6 storage bottles for EBM and the cooler bag

Lets pray and doa that Allah grants me more milk supply so i can achieve my target of 6mo bf Sofia and once achieved, eventually the durations continues as long as they're supply

the baby feed guide

AMIN!

2nd Pregnancy Journey

It's almost a month now ever since i gave birthed to Sofia
so let me just update the overall story and will share the story of delivery on separate one

i have been studied and learn more on  my 2nd pregnancy
lagi best if cakap i have kept my self informed this time
i am more to gentle birth and have joined the Gentle Birth Group in FB too
i aimed to have a gentle birth this time. At least not to have epidural, no epi etc (will share my birth plan here)
Honestly, i was depend on my gynae to do the best for me and HM 4 yrs ago. It was my first child anyway, so many new things i have to adapt and learn that time. Tho HM was admitted to NICU and recovered, i am hoping my 2nd birth won't be the same. I am a bit trauma.

With my 2nd pregnancy, i am a bit relaxed and pretty excited. tak tau kenapa but this time i was prepared
towards the 38wks onwards, i started to feel nervous.

During my first trimester, i dont have much nausea unlike before, but just a mild one
no empty stomach otherwise i would have gastric.
entering 2nd trimester, i was a bit relaxed and enjoying every meals. i have this sudden cravings for watermelon. i would eat it almost everyday, as a must fruit for me to have till my end pregnancy
Beside that, i drank coconut quite frequent, maybe due to the hot weather, i kinda need a relief for my throat
Plus, i have this sweet tooth cravings too. Thank god that i dont have diabetic, high BP etc. Consider myself as a low risk mother

This time i decided to take early maternity leave. Due to dah tak laratla. Kalini entering 7mo je i dah start mencungap and penat sgt. I felt heavier than bawak HM dulu. Tak tau kenapa. Plus i'm not gaining much, 8kg in overall..padehal sofia lahir at 3.2kg
Plus, my office takde lift so dah malas nak climbed to 4th floor everyday (plus dah takde mood nak kejelah) so i decided cuti awal..in total i cuti for 3months

It was a good one. no stress about work etc..dok umah relax do housework (mild) and layan baby inside. Pressure at down there mmg dah heavy, barely sleep on sides so on back je. Baby movement pun makin terasa as i have kulit yang nipis kata doctor. So tahan and layan je la.

Nak tau cerita pasal beranak, ok next post......................................>

Reality Bites

Yikes, that sucks kan
i know but i am the kind of mother that have to work to help support the family but no complaint. i got to have my own pocket money yay!

so today i started my work after 3 months on maternity hols. (yes, i took an early 1mo off as i can't barely walk and climbed the office staircase. my office located at 4th floor and have NO lift)
it breaks my heart to leave my two girls at home especially Sofia who is still on breastfeeding.
Tho i know she is the kind of baby that is well behaved. No cranky except cried for milk or when she wants someone to dukung her, other than that she is easy to managed. Same like HM before. I am so thankful that i was given two daughters that beside cheer up my day and also a good girls.. Syukur!

I just wish and doa that my husband is stabilise enough in future so i don't have this mixed feelings leaving them during weekdays

OK, back to work
(imagine at 4pm now i'm still blogging instead doing my office work. Well, i need to familiarize myself after been away for 3mo kan...Alasan sangat)

Yak di toilet, Yay!

hahahhaha
topic sangat tak senonoh
but this is another milestone from Hanna Mikaela

All this while, she is diaper-less since turning into 3yo last year
pee di toilet and malam no pore pee
but only yak je she failed to diaper-less. and so we both parents tak nak push her hard for that
so we are a bit soft hearted' and let her poo with diapers on. Hanna ni ada satu pe'el where suka yak di tempat yang tersorok. Bawah mejalah, blakang pintu, belakang sofa..you name it
But we still remind her that if she manage to poo at the toilet we will reward her with any toy/s that she wants
so time passes

Once she turned into 4yo last July,i decided that it is the time for her to poo at toilet
So i hide her diapers dalam almari and told her "pampers dah habis, Hanna kena yak kat toilet"
and her ayah keep on persuade and coaxed her to go toilet everytime she sakit perut and feel like to yak
and tah cemana, one day tuh she suddenly volunteer to go toilet and yak
so its not that hard after all hahah (yeah, we have to wait till she's 4yo for this)
eventho it sounded kinda bit late, but we're still proud of her for making this effort
There's a time that i felt worried thinking about this but now can tarik nafas lega
mommy being paranoid as usual :p

and so ayah kept his promised to Hanna and bought her a Fluttershy pony at Toys R us
she is so happy that she's finally collecting another pony to be together with her other collections

PS :
Selamat Hari Merdeka yang ke 57th Malaysia
Tho i liket o travel around but nothing beats being in here and proud to be a Malaysian!
(despite all the nonsense politics issues, sometimes)

The joy story

awww, i've been neglecting this blog  oredi
ok2 so now i should update with the happy story

i have safely delivered a healthy 3.2kg baby girl BUT via c-sect on 18th July 2014, Friday
whatever it is, i am happy that both of us are safe
i'm gonna write on separate part of the birth story and let this post just be a happy one

We've decided to gave her a name of Addyn El Sofia 
Addyn (Addin) - Agama ku ; Sofia - menawan ; El -? request from the ayah
That's me again who have think hundred times for the name hahah
she is 49cm long, weight 3.2kg (i still can't believed that she's heavier than HM who was only 3kg, guess all my weight were on her) and lilit kepala 34cm

Since it's the Hari Raya today, i wish everyone to have a fun and bless celebration with your family
We are so lucky to get a chance to celebrate unlike our others muslim at Palestine, Syria etc
Just be moderate and pray and doa for them that they're always in safe hand

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 1435H

Maaf Zahir Batin 

Much love from us

Amir Izwan

Emmilda Mariko

Hanna Mikaela

Addyn EL Sofia

Nesting at home and Ramadhan story

I have become a penguin mother now
resting and taking my days off from work is such a bliss
my first week off was a relieved, it's like a revenge throughout all my hardwork *cough* and for being in the office for doing nothing *well ppl there tend to ignore me, watodo*
So my routine basically, woke up in the morning, preparing HM for school, then her ayah will send her off then i'm back to sleep *or maybe breakfast dulu bagi kenyang before tido balik* hahahaaaaa

While i volunteer to fetch HM from school in the evening so at least i can have bit of exercise and out from home but it must be before the traffic started
House chores is something that i do everyday, from cleaning, vacuuming, laundry, get ready stuffs for baby etc

I also had the opportunity to join my SAHM gang/ladies for some activities. We've had a breakfast gathering together after sending off our kids to school, went for lunch that dragged to teatime at Wangsa walk (for the UK clans who stayed nearby wangsa maju/setiawangsa/ulu kelang)..catch up on pregnancy issues (since there are 3 of us in the line waiting turn, minus Amy who has popped), gossips at SCFM, parenting, family matters etc. We've shared and exchange info's together. That's the beauty of having a Mommy's club ..shheesh

Comes to the 2nd week where the fasting month is approaching, i had slow down a bit. Plus my tummy is getting heavier day by day that restricted me from walking too much. Continued fetching HM from school but then i realize with the sunny hot weather (blame the El Nino) i find it lazy to go out. I constantly need a/c 24/7 .. Plus sitting too long at one spot has given me this uncomfy feelings and i'm easily tired lately
So i am no more fetching HM ever since the Ramadhan started. I don't have  reason to go out. 
I am such a lazy bummer now -____-

For this time Ramadhan, i am trying and doing my best to puasa but being a preggy mom, i have this privileged given by Allah SWT that i can skip from puasa (it's called rukhsah). So as of today, i think we have been puasa for almost 8/9 days and i managed to achieved 5days. i find  that i easily get dehydrated and so i puasa on alternate days now. Man, twas not easy. I felt thirsty more than the hunger feeling
May Allah bless all of us in this holy month and may we pull through with our ibadah puasa in this hot weather ..Phiew

what else? i'm in anticipation to have the baby
Tho i have a difficulties to sleep now *this baby is so active when comes to midnight that i have changed my sleeping pattern too*
not complaining but i did sometimes (slap my face) when the pain is unbearable and when my BH has become more frequent now, and Oh the tightening too
these that i have to go through and trust me, your life will totally change when the baby has arrives 

father's day story

heh kinda backdated story but i'd like to share jugak

this year celebration was nothing much and fancy. I am officially a mother of penguin now, with baby inside my tummy that has engaged at 34 weeks (that was fast tho, unexpected) i had to walk slowly and more like beauty pageant. opps penguin hehe

Lucky i had booked for this dinner at Hotel Istana for the past one week .knowing saturday  is always full, so i did the right move

3 of us went with empty stomach and had a good time eating like nobody cares haha

Happy father's day to my dear husband. thanks for being the most caring ayah and sudi jadi entertainer whenever HM needs one

soon, on july you'll be getting another precious gift from me....LOL

a makeover for HM

hey, i'm still alive hahahha

anyhoo, a short update of what's going on lately (rather than nothing in my blog kan)
i have this few  to-do-list before popping. one of it is to revamp/makeover of HM's room so she can share with her adik later

So we made a trip to Ikea (can say my fav place to find for furnitures and other stuffs)
i have budgeted and ticked on what are the necessary items by looking at the webs/catalogue earlier
Glad that we went during one of the weekdays so our tasks run smoothly.
less crowds made it easier to shop and eat. Yes EAT
Must eat Ikea meatballs whenever you're here -___-

Shopping and eating done at 3 hours plus and before 5pm we should be out form there
to avoid stuck in traffic jams during office hours and it's raining heavily too *phew*

Back home, hubs getting excited by telling HM dulu that we have a surprise for her
*she always thrilled when she heard a "surprise" and she's getting ecstatic*
so malam tu jugak, both of them ensemble the green storage box that i bought to store her toys
While me being the mandur, HM participating by helping ayah to do the box
It's fun seeing her getting involved and getting know more on screws, screwdriver, latch key etc

that green storage i bought to store all her toys

And the next day is the makeover of her room. I've did half before and now its the rest
Making space for the little one in womb and rearranging few of clothes and add in some stuffs too. Main obj is to make it cheerful and acceptable by HM so she can permanently sleep in her own room rather than co-sleeping. The main distraction is the Frozen bedsheet

and tadaaa the results

we add the bedsheet, the notice board and clean up some part
the rest was from the earlier

its the island hopping time

ok next update on this trip (kene update cepat coz makcik Ezany dah sibuk nak tanye itinerary. lol)

the most awaited one, island hopping (mak buyung tak sedo diri)

after breakfast we walked to the Jesselton point. inside, there's alot of counters that offers you the package. we just chose randomly counter no 2, took package trip to manukan and sapi island RM70
tips : sampai each pulau, they will ask u to pay the park entrance fee (mcm kat redang tu) RM3 kot per adult. so bayar lagila ye 

as we have only 45mins to spend at at sapi so kitorg just chill2 while HM play sand castle a while. at 11.15am our boat arrived and took us to manukan. we have almost 2hrs 30mins there and we are enjoying ourself. Less crowds, that's the beauty holidaying on weekdays and with the clear blue water, lagi fun! snorkeling  gear can be rented at RM10 - 1 set google tuh

ayah & anak poser haha

at jesselton terminal

jeti at manukan. fishes kat kaki2 tu je

meh main pasir

group pics

HM sibuk main ni la

less crowds, enjoy the sea!

fav island

journey balik boat rides sgt bumpy. yelah time tu abt almost 3pm, air pasang. doa je everything will be fine with si kecik inside. instructed the boatmen bawak slow sket.
sampai je jeti, semua kelaparan hahaha. mkn kasi kenyang be4 balik hotel

abt 530pm we went out again for last round of shopping and pasar phil (driving this time) and went to Tg Aru for a diff environment of food court. Kat sini famous ngn ABC spesel (if nak tgk how big and splurge is the abc spesel sila follow ig amirpistola) lol
kat foodcourt sini ada mcm2 tp tgk food gakla ada yg best and tak. i am so dead tired that night, must be the post-island-lagged. plus i have to start packing jugak. uwaaaaaaa
confirmed balik bilik kemas sket je lepas tu mmg pengsan, semua!