the last sad of 2012

i was reading the newsfeed at Fb as usual, every morning

itulah kerjanya once masuk office, not checking email but FB dulu

and i was like what? it can't be. 

and i say it out loud so my boss can hear it too

"eh, Clifford passed away la"

boss , "what?oh shit. where did you hear it"

me, "come la here, i saw it in my friend's FB status"

and yes, he passed away this morning. apparently he was admitted like a week ago due to

there's a growth in his stomach. new found cancer

he undergo the operation to remove it about early this year, was on recovery mode, still ongoing check up at Gleneagles Hosp

i am sad. terribly in shocked. he reminds me of my dad :(

i just can't believe and refused to accept the news for a bout 2hours. we just met and spent time together at his resort when me and boss visited him on Oct 2012. and I was so thankful that i pestered boss to go jugak Tmn Negara. Tho i don't really see him that often but the 3d2n there, listening to his story of his career, family, kids, life etc. Man, he is such a  young at heart. he has this positive vibes around and was so passionate with the hotel industry. 

I cried. Yes i did. i dunno why. he just reminds me of my late dad

he's here alone while family and kids at singapore. but he is such a hero. he went through and refused to let others worried of him. I even visited him while he finished his operation at Gleneagles hosp earlier and saw him recovering but i just couldn't bare to know he's gone. but i guess that's the fact

This is surely not a good way to end the 2012. he died

and esok, the first of 2013, he'll be buried. 

Sir (as i always called you that), i pray that you'll have a good life there

and may you rest in peace sir. he is Mr Clifford Zuzartee

our last picture together. he was on far left, in white shirt

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update of the funeral session on 1/1/2013

i decided to pay a last visit and respect at his house at TTDI before they undergo the religious thingy at the church
first, he had a beautiful and cosy renovated house
and yes, again i cried when i see him. memang emotional sungguh.

then we proceed to the nearby church. while other Catholics pray and sing whatever they have to, i just remain silent
the moment when one of his family giving a words and those last words he left for the girls, aiyaaaa it made me sedih lagi. the truth that he is such a kind hearted person. I can see all sorts of ppl and regardless the religion are in the church. we love and care for him, that's for sure. he touched everyone heart with his kindness, generous and laughter
he died at the of age 52