Hanna and the NICU story

I'm sure everyone been wondering on what exactly was happening to Hanna Mikaela (HM) right after her delivery on 21 July 2010, which i thought some of you here are aware that she's been admitted to NICU/ICU ward for further monitor due to her pneumonia problem

I must say that it is a heart wrenching going thru this, seeing your daughter with all those wires attached.

Hanya Tuhan je yang tau how I'd felt. Memang tak sanggup nak tengok. 

Right after i delivered HM, she was not really crying beside the ahekk-ahekk sounds. After they cleaned her, she still not crying. And they spotted that she's sort of having a difficulty to breath. So she was admitted to the ICU ward. While me, after the doctor done with my stitches, of cozla mencari my baby. But sedih sangat that moment when i looked at my hubby's face saying that Hanna still kat ICU and the doctor said it's 50-50 chance for her.

Ya Allah, time tu mmg rasa sebak sgt, muka my hubby pun macam nak nangis when he's saying that. Imagine, korang dah penat2 lahirkan baby pastu excited nak tengok muka anak korang end up she's not well. Memang sampai la ni aku takleh nak lupe perkataan 50-50 from my hubby, it was too heart breaking hearing that.

I only got a chance to see HM on the day 2, after all the effect dari ubat dah gone and i can think and walked straight. Again, seeing her in that cubical with all the wires, mmg sangat sedih. BUT it was an over whelming moment when the nurse update us that she's stabil and fought for it.. Only HM sorang using the big machine, and according to the nurse, that would help her to breath. Aku tengok baby lain kat situ smua taklah teruk sangat despite so many premature babies but i just keep on think yg positif and pray HM will be fine

Cried?Yes definitely i cried. I was fragile at one time but the support from Hubby and family made me to be a stronger mommy. I have to be strong for Hanna eventho she's not with me for 10 consecutive nights.

After 10 days berkampung kat situ, HM finally free to go home. That is the best moment and feeling i've had. I miss to hear she's crying over for milk, miss to hold her and definitely everyone kat umah tu can't wait to meet her.  And yang paling best, we discharged during her ayah 29th birthday on the 30 July. That was the best gift he'd ever had :)

Regards of HM illness, actually my O&G doc pun tak tau what's wrong with her. But they suspected that a bit of my hormones/blood has gone into her which they found out at the 1st stage that HM's nose was bleed. Then the Paed specialist claimed that it was severe congenital pneumonia (according to her report too) which resulted her having a difficulties to breath due to her lung been filled with bacteria, and it was from my vagina. How it happened? Jangan tanya aku coz we don't find anything wrong during my pregnancy check up, even up to the last check up. of coz my O&G doctor pun terkejut, that was his least expectation pun

But, i'm sure behind all this, memang ada hikmahnya. No need to elaborate more and further here but it was an eye opening for me and hubby. We appreciate HM more as she was the priceless gift from Allah. Must say million thanks to all that have been pray for HM's and all the kind wishes and thoughts. 

Hanna is a strong girl. She is such a good girl and clever girl. 

we do love her so much.

That's what i told Hanna deary everyday 

Hanna was 2 days old at NICU

Hanna 1 month old :)

PS :  the pic attached has not been released for public view before, anywhere