for the past few days

i'm shivering cold like hell, never like this before in mylife. my temperature was 38C..the hot went straight to my brain, which i felt the warm at both of my eyes too..
again, another MC for the month and additional medicines to be taken..sigh

as i went thru all my mails, another invitation card for wedding received. I thought it was from AE (weds in on this 31 May 08) but it was from Firdaus (abe kelate dolu2..hehe)
finally, he met someone and settling down on this 21 June 08. Congrats to u bro. (tetibe je,
ter-flash back all the memories we had before, what a loyar buruk he is, the time we went to his hometown etc etc) should be happy for him. his time has come and mine is soon :)

Since school holiday started, mmg byk yg nak kawin. my coming weekend packed wt weds invitation. 31 may- AE, 1 june- Zamie

Congrats to all of my frens whose getting married

I am celebrating my 26th year today!!!

Happy Birthday to myself!!

Thanks to all for wishing me via sms (as early as 7am), phone calls (darling, ur the 1st to called at 12.03am), Fbook, Frenster, myspace , ym , gmail and all
Not to forget to my colleagues at the office for throwing me a luncheon.

I do hope all my wishes this year may be granted. to have healthy life, surrounded with bountiful love and lots of happiness and wealthiness ahead.

will do upload few pictures taken later

Miserable condition

i just don't have moods for everything. my wisdom tooth is coming out and it caused my gums pain.
it's hard for me to chew my food on it. i hate this!!!!!

then my period is delayed..again. i hate when my hormones is imbalance. it made my dandruff more, made my breast swelling, made my mood swing, made my life miserable..bla bla.
it just made my life miserable. everything is seems not right for me. poor my other significant, u hv to bare with me til it arrives. tak pick up my call pun aku bleh hangin..haha

then i think my weight is not gaining for the past 6 yrs, remain at 45kg. is that a problem?and few others keep on mentioning that i'm shrinking/too skinny/blabla..hey, have u ever think that to have a lil flesh in my body was something that i wish for?at least it make me look 'healthier'. my skins are dry now, i think i'm lacking of Vit C...i need that!!!!

suddenly i felt that my life this week is totally in a mess, emotionally & physically
warghhhhhhhhhhh :(

Bau - Warkah (OST Sindarela)

Takkan lagi aku menunggu
kau hadir di dalam mimpi-mimpiku
puasku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti mereka yang punya cinta

Diriku tanpa dirimu
kau tempuhi penuh bahagia
diriku mahu kau tahu
pedih ini kau tak terasa

Warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti yang aku kenali dulu
setiaku menantikan dirimu
seperti setianya terhadap diriku

Tapiku melepaskan mu
melangkah namun tak berdaya
terusku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada

Been looking for this song for a while, berkat drpd tgk sindarella oline and some of them has given the title for this song, surfla utube..haha. hope u all enjoy listening as i am~sedih lagu ni

walk with me

Walk with me down winding roads
Tree lined paths and trails unknown
Walk with me and hold my hand
Walk with me in sea soaked sand

Hear my whisper in your ear
A hushed breath, a gentle tear
Hear the song of mourning doves
Hear my cries of whispered love

Tell me of your wildest dreams
All the things you’ve never seen
Tell me of our life to come
Tell me of our unborn son

Name the things you hold most dear
The wants, desires that you hold near
Name a place you want to go
Name to me your deepest woe

Write to me of love so sweet
From your heart – dig down deep
Write to me a song I know
Write to me in sweetest prose

Hold me close and don’t let go
Your love is what I want to know
Hold my heart within yours dear
Hold me now, pull me near

Feel me now our bodies twined
Two become one, a single mind
Feel my body, taste my soul
Feel the love that makes us whole

To Mel

I think this is what u need from 'him' kan. the one ur wishing for.but not all things will be sail smoothly.just hope that hold on to urselfa nd not to give up if u think deeply that he'll for u and he deserved to get u, fight for it then. but don't be too fool and blind coz of Love :)

i am mean!!

semlm merupakan hari that i should say 'the day i'm trying to be mean to everyone'.
it started with these :-

TNT account- at work
we signed for express economy account but they charged us for global express charges.
been followoing up about this for the past 2 weeks and there's still no good explanation. they can only issued a credit note without telling me what's the fucking reason they been charging us that.
and until fucking time, i will wait for their reasonable explanation and pay the charges.

With my 'poyo' cousin
from talking about wedding gift suddenly she's becoming so paranoid on insisting me to hv a 'berinai' session for my wedding..' u gotta hv dat in ur wedding' n i was like 'hello, i know it's sort of in the adat but we dun have to/necessary to have that nowadays.' the she started to mcm mengungkit that my bertunang haritu was like 'tah ape'. and i did asked whats wrong wt that?
she said that i'm kinda don't hv a real preparation so to make it look more complete u need to do this and that. it was a bit disturbance for me so i seek for few others that had gone thru a wedding and they said It's not necessary!!
So i decided that i will stick to my plan and the decision on how to organize my wedding according to my way.that's my day and not others so mind ur own business. opinions are most welcome but it's still me who hv to decide on what is gonna be. i dun need other opinions who can add on more headaches to my family and myself. Moreover, i dun like this kinda of relatives that like to bitchy around about each other. we're in the family, so support each other instead of being the torn among the roses.

my other significant
was hoping that he could cool me down but no . he's like making it more worse. there's a time when i need you to be a good listener without any interruption and no opinions needed. i was spilling out all the disappointment i had but you're upsetting me instead. and how stupid do u think am i to do such thing that mentioned by u?am i dat stupid? end up we're in not talking terms now..i dunno for how long..just wait n see

do u think thats enuff for the day?well for me it certainly is.i can't just keep on being so mean.that is so not me.poking me is not a gud idea as i will the most mean-est person dat u can't think of..ngaaaaa