I can feeell you

For those yang tak tau, i'm into 19 weeks this coming Wedn, so lagi semggu nak 20 weeks= 5mths. The feeling?i'm far away fine now, dah takde problem sgt like the 1st trimester. And because i'm skinny or shud i say slim better haha, my tummy hasn't grow yet 'in the picture'. For those who'd see me in proper clothes, that you can see my tummy. Coz sometimes i tend to wear kinda loose clothes to get comfy. Get it?Or maybe i ikut my mom dulu, when she's pregnant, she used to be slim but with big tummy :)

Recent progress with Petit's so far?Well, i decided to call my baby Petit's regardless of i'm having a boy/girl babyla kan, there's a funny story behind it. We all went to Fullhouse along Jln yap Kwan Seng for a dinner a month ago, then i tapau some cookies. The box they given mentioned something like this 'Petit's Box'..so one of my gf suggested that to call my bb as Petit's too. Dang!it's kewl

I can feel Petit's quickening now. In medical terms/as well as i read kat "What to expect- When you're expecting" by heidi murkoff they called the baby's movement as Quickening. Even when i did my check-up with my O&G pun, they jot that quickening words.

At first rasa cam ade butterfly or u'd felt like ade water wave inside your tummy. But last weekend, while i was reading Jodi Piccoult's book, i can feel Petit's moving. I can't really describe how the feelings but it's cute tho. Then pindah kat belah kiri perut plak. I've noticed the movement only at nights. Guess that's when Petit's getting active & excited kan.

According to books/doctors, sometimes you tend to unaware this feeling but sooner or later you will feel it. As your tummy grow, you will feel the real kicking.

I did buy some of the baby stuffs. Tengok mana yg ada sale and it's necessary belila. I have the list so it can guide me not to over spent i hope. So far no clothes yet. Just the basic eg: Avent's bottle set.

Sedikit tersentuh

 Cerita kat bawah ni aku jumpe kat blog seseorang yg aku pun baru follow her blog, stumbled somewhere and thank you for let us read your blog.

Actually dia ni kwn to mygf, so i do not her directly. However, she just have a baby boy recently, so i decided to follow her blog due to her sharing entries related to her pregnancy & other stuffs



Al-Fatihah buat adik Muhammad Azam Zuhaily dan Muhammad Azam Zuhairy yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah. Mereka adalah kembar yang aku dan isteri tunggu sekian lama. Kelahiran mereka pada 31 Mei 2009 sangat tidak diduga kerana baru genap enam bulan usia dalam kandungan.

Jam 9.15 minit pagi isteri mengadu sakit dan terasa seperti ada sesuatu di bahagian sulitnya, aku meneliti dan sangat terperanjat menyaksikan seakan kepala seorang bayi seakan mahu keluar dari situ.

Terus aku pecut encik getz ke hospital putrajaya yang jaraknya hanya 15 minit dari rumah kami tetapi terasa seperti 15 hari jaraknya ketika itu. Setibanya di hospital terus ke labour room dan isteriku dibawa masuk. Aku mahu ikut tapi tak dibenarkan kerana sebab yang malas aku nak pertikai.

Muhammad Azam Zuhaily selamat dilahirkan selepas lima minit isteriku dibawa ke bilik bersalin tetapi nyawanya sudah tiada, menurut doktor arwah sudah lebih 24 jam meninggal.

Muhammad Azam Zuhairy menyusul dengan penuh harapan dari setiap doktor dan missy agar dia dapat menyambung perjuangan, sudah pasti harapan aku dan isteri lah yang paling tinggi. Dia berjuang dan terus berjuang sehingga lah pada malam tadi, dia sudah mula keletihan kerana paru paru yang masih belum matang seakan kehabisan tenaga untuk mengepam oksigen masuk kedalam jantung. Jam 9 malam aku tiba di tempat dia ditempatkan dan ketika itu jantung aku yang berdegup kencang kerana melihat doctor mengepam oksigen secara manual kerana mesin yang digunakan tidak lagi berkesan kerana hanya separuh oksigen dapat masuk ke ruang paru parunya.

AKu terus menunggu sambil membaca yasin hingga lah ke jam 11 malam bila doktor mengarahkan aku pulang kerana mereka mencuba sedaya yang mampu untuk menyelamatkan Zuhairy. Sebelum pulang aku sempat mengusap ubun ubunnya sambil memberi kata kata semangat.

Tak sampai setengah jam dirumah, doktor pakar yang turut bergegas ke hospital menghubungiku agar segera ke hospital. Terus terang sepanjang perjalanan aku terasa hiba dan menangis. Setiba di hospital aku berlari ke wad dia ditempatkan dan setibanya disana doktor memaklumkan paru parunya semakin lemah tetapi doktor masih bertungkus lumus berusaha. Jam menunjukkan 12 tengah malam dan aku masih menaruh harapan dan tak jemu membaca yasin sambil menjeling ke skrin yang memaparkan degupan jantungnya yang semakin lemah.

Aku rasa amat tersentuh bila dia memberi reaksi setelah aku turut berada dibilik rawatan dan membelai sambil bercakap dengannya. Dari keadaan meronta ronta sebelumnya, dia seakan akan rasa tenang bila mengetahui aku disisinya. Tetapi dia tetap semakin lemah.

Jam 1 pagi doktor seakan memberi hint yang usaha mereka tak berhasil. AKu meminta sedikit masa untuk mengambil isteri tersayang kerana tak mahu merasa ralat di kemudian hari kerana si ibu tak berpeluang menatap wajah anaknya buat kali terakhir.

Memecut balik rumah dan ke hospital semula dalam masa tak sampai 30 minit.

Setibanya di bilik rawatan bersama isteri dan parentsku, kami terus menjenguk Muhammad Azam Zuhairy yang sangat lemah. Rasa mahu gugur jantung melihat keadaannya tapi aku gagahkan diri. AKu dan isteri menegurnya walau kami tahu dia sudah tak sedarkan diri. AKu hanya mampu membisikkan kalimah syahadah kepadanya dan dalam masa sama jantungnya terus berhenti berdenyut. Seakan tersenyum arwah kepada ibu dan ayah yang tak sempat didakap apatah lagi nak bermanja.

1.50 pagi, Muhammad Azam Zuhairy menghembuskan nafas yang terakhir. Mungkin dia tak mahu menyusahkan kami dengan keadaannya. Mungkin juga dia mahu membantu adiknya Muhammad Azam Zuhaily di alam sebelah sana. Dia memang abang kerana saiz dan keaktifannya dalam kandungan. Tapi dia berusaha selamatkan adik, mungkin sebab itu dia keluar kemudian.

Apa lah daya kami selain menerima takdir ketentuan Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Maha Penyayang. Kami redha walau berendam air mata. Semoga mereka bersemadi dengan aman di syurga yang dijanjikan buat mereka. Moga mereka tak lupa mendoakan ibu mereka segera sembuh dan menguatkan semangat. Kerana airmataku senang benar berderaian bila mengenangkan keadaan isteriku yang sudah kehilangan insan yang sangat rapat dengannya dalam tempoh enam bulan itu. Begitu juga aku. Sayu tapi aku tetap redha...

Akan bersambung lagi bila sudah benar benar ada kelapangan. Sekadar singgah kerana mahu beli tiket secara online buat ayahbonda. Arwah Muhammad Azam Zuhairy selamat disemadikan jam 3.30 petang tadi disebelah kubur adiknya, Muhammad Azam Zuhaily.

Kita yg were not in this situation pun, could feel the sadness that both of this parents had kan. Takpela, redha jela dgn pemergian mereka.

to someone whom i know here and maybe you've read this  you know who you are, jgn sedih ingat arwah eh babe. Ur strong enuff and you'll be having the 2nd one soon.

Janda baik and waterfalls

Yes, the weather will be this hot most probably till March or the end of it.
Semggu sekali rasenye hujan baru nak turun. Oh what a torture. tapi org cakap di neraka lagi panas kan?so bare with it jela

Get urself pregnant legally ye and feel the double heat. You're sweating like orang yg kerja buruh tu..and all you want is least clothes to put on but not with 2 piece at homela, melampau tuh. Should i say sleeveless and shorts will do.

CNY weekend for 4 days..nuthing much exciting. Decided to just cool off to Janda Baik. Actually a week before pun dah ke Pangsun, rendam dlm sungai lagi but it's not clear water & not cool enuffla. That's why repeat ke JandaBaik, my first time here.

A bit challenging, mind be being 4 mth preggy ni tapi ku gagahkan jua. But it's all worthla. air yg sejuk dan nyaman, orang tak ramai. Berendam sepuasnya la. tak rasa sejuk pun due to contra with the weather yang panas. Korang bleh caya tak, i've had sun burnt tau. Haha dah sehari baru realize the shoulder skin dah merah. We were there for about 4 hrs then balikla. But we stopped at Wadi Hussien's place, yang ada big taman that fulled with flowers and all sorts of things. A bit creative and quite a huge place to taka care of tapi dia ada workers so it helped la.

Dengan weather yg berterusan begini till march, the possibility for us visiting the rest of air terjun/sungai2 seems like helping. Waaa, i need my a/c now!!

More pics at my FB ya

Penangan MAC

Nak share one thing. sorryla bab make-up i mmg jarang beli.selalu dpt free or orang bagi. Beside i'm not that heavy make-up user. so sometimes my blusher can last up to 4 yrs. if beli pun takat lipstick, mascara..yang ringan2 je

Actually dah lama nak beli base for make-up ni, beside my face oily kan. So kene la make-up yang kite pakai tu tahan lama. Especially during ada function. Takkan nak half way muka dah berminyak (which is the common prob i have)

So ade duit lebih berkat saving, went to MAC counter and bought it finally.
And i've tried today to the office, just to ensure whether it really works or not?
It is really workingla, normally after lunch, muka dah siap berminyak but now at 4pm, muka ku still steady je. maybe for the rest of my friends here dah tau about the usage of this base and other MAC products, but i just have it. So outdated sketla dari korang yang dah tau eh..hehe

To know about the base for our face, before we apply any foundation/powder
please click this link

Harga a bit pricey but for me, benda ni akan tahan lama la. Maybe 3 yrs?hehe
Long term sket

ps : Sorryla tak amik pic today to show the differences, but one day yeah

Tiger year & valentine' s day

Giler lama tak update blog. so ade short time ni bolehla update sket before batt laptopni out
and since it' s the 2nd day of CNY, so still leh update about CNY la.hhi


Well for my chinese friends, Gong Xi Fa Chai. This year is  tiger year, roaring!! n the best thiing about CNY this year is we, the non-chinese got xtra 2 days off beside the weekend. Yup, we'll start working on Wedn only tau. Bet korang smua ada plan sendiri kan


Another bestnye CNY this time is, it's the same day of the Valentine's day .So bleh imagine cina2 ni siang with the family and nite time with their loved ones.haha


As for me, dah kawinni Vday tak sambutla..infact all this while memang tak sambut pun, just buat plan ikut suka hati. More to spend time together je


I will update you with with my current activity. Mean time, enjoy you day ppl 

Ish Ish..kenapa dan mengapa?

Lately ni boleh dikatekan telinga aku panas and lotih mendengar tp nak buek camno, layan kan jela. Orang dok mengadu kat aku on few occasions :-

Kes 1
Kwn skola A pinjam duit dr kwn skola B setelah percubaan meminjam dariku tidak berjaya. Setelah A dpt duit dari B, terus senyap begitu sj till now dah masuk sebulan. Time nak pinjam duit ayat cerita sedih mcm biasela. Dah dpt terus senyap + bg alasan and dolak dalik yg byk & kekdg tak masuk akal.Kwn B mengadu pdku.Kwn aku yg C mmg dah lama terkena dr kwn A ni. Aku try tolong kwn B dptkan duit dia even RM70 pun tp bagi dia yg dah kahwin ade anak 3, RM70 amat bermakna eh.

Jdkan cerita, si B dah tak sabar. Msg dia tak di reply. msg FB pun jwb ikut suka hati, si B tulislah kat wall si A di FB. alkisahnye, aku didelete oleh si A (maybe takut rahsia pecah kot) anyhow, aku sikit pun tak amik and terasa of what si A did to me. For me, either u take it or leave it. Simple as that. Aku takde masa nak jadi bdk time skola nak argue over somethg silly. si A pun delete si B di FB. so camne kwn si B nak follow up wt her about the money?Hadui, aku pun tatau nak solvekan camne. Sian ngn si B yg tak psl2 kene. Padehal kitorg ni smua baru je jumpe dlm FB after high school smua berpecah

Latest update : rupenye byk kwn skola kau kene ngn budak pinjam duit ni. Namenye YUSMALIZA yusof. Pengakuan ikhlas dari mangsa2 telah mengantoikan diri..lu pikir la sendiri!!

Kes 2
Si X ni sll ngadu kat aku pasal bdk kat her dept. Just bcoz bos aku dipromoted jadi her boss and si X sll rajin borak ngn aku, doesn't mean nak citer kat aku all petty things happened kat her dept. Petty stuffs like : staff sorg ni masuk ofis lambat, pastu hilang g breakfast--> staff lagi 2 org amik EL tp tak diupdate di rekod AL -->psl 2 ekor staff dia duk sll buli staff admin buat keje --> dll

basically dia ni ngadu smua kat aku for what?hope in return aku ngadu kat boss aku so boss aku bleh dgr ape dia complaint and revamp smua2 tu?eee annoyingla, almost everyday ade je dia ni nak chat wt me and tell story. Ingat aku takde keje ke oiiiiiii. Dia ade GM so reportla..if budak admin tu pun duk senyap and tak complaint anythg so why should her. Bile aku ckp "Ko buat sendirila if ko rase bende tu tak betul" tau plak dia jawab "That's not my work"
dah tu...dok complaint lagi??????

Kes 3
kes orang meroyan and takleh terima teguran. Bagi aku if citer psl kutuk mengutuk, smua pun org penah kene. CUme dlm kes ni aku rasa tak worth it aku layankan coz i don't wanna be as low as her position. Starting with ade sorang kwn M ni mengadu gak kat aku psl si X..and the story goes on..Actually aku mmg dah tau attitude X begini even for few of my friends pun agreed. Tapi kami abaikan je tp if sampai dah melampau org lain pun hangin kan.Kami selama ni diam coz tau her attitude camtu, either take it or leave.

Tapi setakat nak show off about your stuffs takyahla, not worth it. Kami bukan jeles tapi concern, But is she thinks we are so nosy than better we're back off. In fact we kinda new that she's a bit queen control to the husband yg for us, was such a nice man and should stand for it we do observed things ok. Umah tgga org maleh nak masuk campurla. As for me simple je, if you can't take it then leave it. Aku tanak semakkan pale otak ngn kwn mcm ni. Aku buang yg negative side coz i aint losing anythg.
i think it's good for me not to know anything, if tau pun buat tatau jela


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Sometimes i wish that i have a peaceful life but that's not gonna happen kan.
So go thru jela. If you think that a certain friends gives you all the positive vibes, let them remain to be your friend. We will meet variety of ppl in this earth. so it's up to you do decide and place them


Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty.  ~Sicilian Proverb