The Waiting Game

Argh, i felt so depressed!

Nak tau pasal ape?Pasal baby tak keluar lagi..I bet mommies out there know how'd i feel currently

Dahla twice false alarm for labor, end up till now, I'm 40 weeks by this Tuesday, baby still haven't give any signs yet to pop. Instead, every night i've been facing with difficulties to sleep. Sleeping pattern has turned into haywire.

kekadang tu subuh baru dapat tido lena, before that, baby tah buat ape dalam perut that really made me uncomfortable. Sometimes i was hoping and waiting for the contractions to come but avail. Not to forget the heartburn, the backache and the visiting toilet.

At this time, i've had almost 3 or more of my friends that their EDD was supposedly later than me later by 1-3 weeks, are having their baby already. Please tell me how am i supposed to feel when i looked at their pics in the FB?that they enjoying their new arrival of baby in their arms and NOT ME? i'm still stucked here, with my baby inside. I am so envy u with all the new mommy outhere !!!

At times, i felt like giving up and crying, i had this hopeless and useless feeling for not getting my baby out but i know that it's just part of the waiting game and only a minor challenged thus i have to be strong for my baby. I can't be feeling like this which there'll be huge and more challenging once the baby is out. I'd cried at nite too, just to make myself relieved. Wondering when is the baby is coming out, over and over again.sigh

Now the baby position is really dropping where everyone can noticed but still no signs of labor yet. Sometimes i just felt that i'll choose to be delivered at the private hosp which you can opt to be induced when you're already dilating at 2cm instead of waiting till the 41 weeks, like how the govt practiced. It's  really a mentally tortured tau. I'd try to keep myself calm by  isolating myself in the room, since my backache is killing me and the baby's dropping position is avoiding me to walk more i had this feeling that the baby's head is dropping and might fall out of my VG anytimes, so i'd prefer to just lay down on the bed while reading my books or doing other stuffs la.

If korang tanye aku, ape lagi yang aku  idam2kan in terms of food and stuffs, basically I'VE HAD EVERYTHING. I should be thankful for having a such wonderful and accommodating husband that fulfill all my wishes. Thank you sayang for being there for me, at all times

Some ppl been giving good advised and i thanked for that. I know this is all Kerja Allah so there's nothing much i can do beside waiting and just pray that me and the baby will be fine and i will have a smooth delivery.

BABY, When are you coming out????