Been wanting to posted this long time ago but undecided and now i'm sure to let this be here to share with others
Dear my virtual diary and readers,
As i remembered, this is the most challenging months in my life. been counting and noticed that for the past 2 months (Dec 08- current), i've been crying a lot. it's all because the tensed on this marriage thingy. Dugaan datang silih berganti. Sometimes, rasa macam takleh nak tanggung all the burden but darling gave me a full support and couraged to be strong to go thru all this besides friends who have seen and knew the actual facts.
Sedih pikirkan takut tak cukup duit. that's the most thing in mymind now. trying to have and raise more money. It was all nice planned before but due to some reason, i have failed to have that (pls do not ask me on this as it's the most hurtful thing currently) Other preps was doing fine. sometimes were asking myself whether can i go thru this challenged? and was praying that there will be rainbows and sunshine waiting and promised that a real & happy life will be mine. but aku harus berpijak di bumi yang nyata. some were rather saying that no worries about your future which now is important more.
Betul orang cakap that rezeki sedang and selepas berkahwin tu pasti dtg menjenguk kita but aku taknak mengharapkan sgt. itu rezeki dari Allah, kita yang harus berusaha utk mendapatkannya. If there were my portions, alhamdulillah and amin. Aku ni pulak jenis yang suka sgt nangis bila ada problem yang tak dpt diluahkan and bile dah diluahkan pun sama..aku akan sedih mengenangkan nasib aku ni. I'm trying not to be selfish and complaining on this. was trying to be more acceptable and redha of all this...which i believes whatever happens pasti ada hikmahnya.
Dlm masa ni gak aku dapat menilai yang mana satu kawan masa susah and tak. It was rather shocked to know that kawan yg selama ni aku rase boleh diharapkan & seorang yang baik (despite his past story) is being the cunning ever. He's that bold till i was unsure whether i should have continue our friendship or not based on what he accused me on. Time ni gakla aku dapat sedar mana satu sedara/cousin yang boleh diharap and tak. But sorry to say, once i've hatred someone, u'll be vanished in my life. no more 2nd chance. if aku dah tak suka..mmg sampai mati pun aku takkan suka, whether you're my friends/cousins/sedara/etc..
But slowly i can see that there's a light for me..i hope that lights will always be there to brighter my life & day
ps : pada sesiapa yang dijemput, welcome and to those are not. sorry, view my FB for more
pics :p..jgn lupe jugak hadiah yer (and to those nak bagi duit, silelah bagi direct to myself.would appreciate that)..haha.mem-promokan awal2
Dear my virtual diary and readers,
As i remembered, this is the most challenging months in my life. been counting and noticed that for the past 2 months (Dec 08- current), i've been crying a lot. it's all because the tensed on this marriage thingy. Dugaan datang silih berganti. Sometimes, rasa macam takleh nak tanggung all the burden but darling gave me a full support and couraged to be strong to go thru all this besides friends who have seen and knew the actual facts.
Sedih pikirkan takut tak cukup duit. that's the most thing in mymind now. trying to have and raise more money. It was all nice planned before but due to some reason, i have failed to have that (pls do not ask me on this as it's the most hurtful thing currently) Other preps was doing fine. sometimes were asking myself whether can i go thru this challenged? and was praying that there will be rainbows and sunshine waiting and promised that a real & happy life will be mine. but aku harus berpijak di bumi yang nyata. some were rather saying that no worries about your future which now is important more.
Betul orang cakap that rezeki sedang and selepas berkahwin tu pasti dtg menjenguk kita but aku taknak mengharapkan sgt. itu rezeki dari Allah, kita yang harus berusaha utk mendapatkannya. If there were my portions, alhamdulillah and amin. Aku ni pulak jenis yang suka sgt nangis bila ada problem yang tak dpt diluahkan and bile dah diluahkan pun sama..aku akan sedih mengenangkan nasib aku ni. I'm trying not to be selfish and complaining on this. was trying to be more acceptable and redha of all this...which i believes whatever happens pasti ada hikmahnya.
Dlm masa ni gak aku dapat menilai yang mana satu kawan masa susah and tak. It was rather shocked to know that kawan yg selama ni aku rase boleh diharapkan & seorang yang baik (despite his past story) is being the cunning ever. He's that bold till i was unsure whether i should have continue our friendship or not based on what he accused me on. Time ni gakla aku dapat sedar mana satu sedara/cousin yang boleh diharap and tak. But sorry to say, once i've hatred someone, u'll be vanished in my life. no more 2nd chance. if aku dah tak suka..mmg sampai mati pun aku takkan suka, whether you're my friends/cousins/sedara/etc..
But slowly i can see that there's a light for me..i hope that lights will always be there to brighter my life & day
ps : pada sesiapa yang dijemput, welcome and to those are not. sorry, view my FB for more
pics :p..jgn lupe jugak hadiah yer (and to those nak bagi duit, silelah bagi direct to myself.would appreciate that)..haha.mem-promokan awal2
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